
The term "Bucket List" has been added to the popular lexicon since the Jack Nicholson/Morgan Freeman movie of a few months ago. In my day, it was just called "goals." About 4 years ago, when I ran my first race of any kind (it was the St Patty's Day 10k), I set down a goal to qualify and run in the Boston Marathon. For those of you who don't know, the Boston Marathon is pretty much the only Marathon race in the world that you need a qualifying time to enter. It is also the oldest continuously run marathon in the world. I love Boston. I love running. I love marathons. It fits. It just makes sense to me. But it's not easy. It's such a huge goal. To get there, I need to run a marathon in 3 hours and 10 minutes or less.
The Chinese in the image above is (roughly) pronounced Nai Xing. It (also roughly) translates to patience. The symbol on the right derives itself from 'heart' and the symbol on the left derived from 'the blade of the knife.' Basically, the symbols are the illustration of how difficult it is to practice/realize the virtue. Trying to achieve this goal of mine has lead me to the waters of the patience lake. I fully expected to run my qualifier on my first try. In real life? 4:08. That's quite a ways from my goal. The Dave of yesteryear would most likely have given up at that point. "It's just too far out of reach." But this one, for some reason, wasn't even a question. "I'll try again in the fall." 3:32. "So close, I'll try again in 3 months."... 3:26.
Burnout.
"But I want to go to Boston NOWWWW!"
Patience, Dave. Patience.
All of those were in 2005. A novice runner like myself is only supposed to run 2 hard marathons per year. To allow proper time for training and recovery, there's just no sensible way to fit in more than that. But I've been the King of instant gratification. If I can't get what I want right now, I don't want it. But, again, this one is different. I realized that I overdid it after my third attempt in one year. So I took it easy in the Spring of 2006. As a result, I had my first DNF (Did Not Finish) in May of '06. It was grand. My family and friends had all come out to watch for the first time (it was in Wilmington, DE) and I had to quit at mile 21. Nai Xing. Blade of the knife through the heart. Patience, Dave. Patience. I began training immediately for a Fall marathon. This time in the Great White North. 4 full months of solid training and a fresh taste of DNF still in my mouth pushed me to train hard and put myself in the best position yet for achieving my goal. Everything had come together. I had been patient in my training, had picked a very fast course, and all but eliminated travel worries from the process. I was on pace through 21 miles when a gale-force wind picked up. 3:24. "Damn You, Mother Nature!" A month later (to the day) I ran the Marine Corps Marathon. Not knowing how my body would react so soon after my last marathon, I just ran casually. This one wasn't for time at all. This one was for fun. I latched on to a runner at about 13 miles and figured I'd just run with her until I hit the wall, then crawl the rest of the way like I had in all of my previous marathons. Mile 20 passed. 21, 22, 23. 24 passed and I was hurting, but I was still with my mate. She kicked hard up the final hill, and I lagged just a bit, but we crossed the finish at the same time. Even splits, no collapse. It
was fun! This lark of a race that I had chosen to run stood up as a prime example of what can happen if I actually practice the virtue of patience. It also renewed my faith in my ability to eventually achieve my goal. For 2007, I decided that, rather than making a plan for the season, I would make a plan for the entire year. I picked a fun marathon in the spring to keep me involved and interested in training. After running in Eugene, Oregon in the Spring, I would immediately start training for the second fastest marathon in the World - The Chicago Marathon. Chicago would be it. With a year-long plan, I couldn't fail. I would be in great shape and be on the perfect course in the perfect weather. In Eugene, I hit the wall pretty hard at mile 22, staggered for a minute, but then ran right through it. No stopping. I had a shot! I was right behind goal pace. I crossed mile 26 at precisely 3 hours and 10 minutes. Unfortunately, marathons are 26 miles, 385 yards. I walked in a daze for the last bit and crossed the line at about 3:16. All was going according to plan. I was in great shape and could go right into training for Chicago. I toed the line in Chicago the fittest I've ever been. Unfortunately, my toe was sweating in the 80 degree 90% humidity. The hottest Chicago on record was shut down mid-race because people were dropping like flies. Already accustomed to disappointment in marathon running, I shut 'er down at about the 10 mile mark and merely soldiered my way to a 4 hour finish. I knew there would be another time. Patience.
Marathon running has taught me that I don't get whatever I want whenever I want it. For some reason, though, I want to achieve this particular goal more than anything else I've ever wanted. Maybe it's because I've been at it so long. Maybe it's because I've gotten so close. Maybe it's because I view it as an achievement that is unique and outstanding. Maybe it's because I feel like I owe it to marathon running to pay back for teaching me the virtue of patience.
I
will qualify for Boston. If it takes me the rest of my life, I will.
Patience, Dave. Patience. Nai Xing.